Just read Angela's blog, it is true though isnt it, when life gets interesting you never have time to put it all down until afterwards. Just happens that I have time at work now (here to answer the phone) at 9 in the morning (definitely not a morning person, me).

Mike is really nice (the boss) and I am earning £9 an hour, which, to you angey dear, i about S$27 an hour which I can live with  You will not believe it if I said that I went out, bought a dress, top and shoes and spent around S$320, You will just about never catching me do that in singapore. I have spent about... urgh, it now comes to me... S$600+ in clothes this month?!?!?!?!

Angey, I am coming to visit you, it is too expensive here!

Applying for jobs now, you are so lucky you dont have to do that... all of you who dont have to do that... I swear at times it is worse than working as a personal assistant (part time).

Went sailing yesterday, terrifying in a boat too small to move in and too big to handle for 2 people, have an amazing collection of bruises to prove it, capsized twice and once went under the boat with my foot caught in the ropes, so scary, I can see why people die in accidents! suddenly realized why coming up from under the boat was so hard... was wearing a bouyancy jacket. Sigh. I can be SO daft sometimes!

That is the update for the moment, although a LOT more has happened. Been together for 2+ years with my darling  and we still behave like 2 silly people  so cute!

 once again in excel class, another hotbed for resentment and total ultimate boredom - some call it nirvana - which drives me to the point of being suicidal.

overheard on tv: children with the most logical arguments ever.

child 1: God is in the sky.

child 2: No, God is in heaven.

child 1: God must be dead then.

Not being blasphemous of course  just noting that children can be really amusing sometimes!

Last night in bed I contemptalated what it would be like to grow old and die. It almost gave me nightmares to be honest.  The thought of my time on this world ending and drifting off (to nothingness? but of course I believe in God so it cant be, either I will be cooking slowly in hell (I am definite I will not end up in the roasting section) or I will be basking gently near earth in the lower eschelons of heaven (not saintly enough) reminding me of my experiences with my results in the last few years, eternally hovering between life and death.

I dont fear death as in what will come after, what I fear is leaving all that I love behind, the chance to make mistakes and to laugh and to cry, etc. It seems that all that comes after seems to be eternal sorrow or eternal sunshine! If I had to be honest, what paradise would be for me is to be alive with a few troubles, nothing TOO major, but to have things go fairly right in general. Whatever heaven/hell would be like... I am quite certain that it will be different from being alive (otherwise why bother living?)!

Let me live happily enough for the moment worrying about my maths exam tomorrow (multiple choice x 20 not counted but still could prove important ultimately if hanging in the balance between a merit and distinction or otherwise). No one else seems too fussed with it so am I just being paranoid?

My mom and dad visited yesterday for a day before heading back to singapore. Of course they had been in london about 10 days ago so we barely got a chance to miss them before they sprouted again! It is a funny thing but the more I see them the more I miss them. It sort of hits home that they will not be there forever as I see them grow older everytime I see them. I fear that things may go wrong, e.g. accident, heart attack, etc, and that I will spend my whole life regretting that I didnt spend more time with them  actually this is probably a bad thing to type in comp class it is actually bringing tears to my eyes

On to happier things, I am having an interview for a part time job as a PA for a start up recruitment thing, updates on friday to see what happens!

Next sunday is my anniversary with john and I am tearing my hair out wondering what to do!!! 2 years of being together

I am going to escape now during the break... FREEDOM!

I am now sitting down in class supposedly learning excel (which admittedly, shocking as it is, after all these years I still do not know!) However, problems with the computers seem to be getting us down! Uni is fine at the moment but I wish that it would all start (sort of yes and no) so we can really get into the meaty stuff, learning all those new things!

Angey provided the inspiration for me to blog so lets see how often I actually do it!

John and I are getting on great, 10th October is creeping up on me now, our 2nd anniversary! So happy that we have been together for so long and even better still we still look at each other with goo-goo eyes! But he is so cute with his thick brown lashes and blue eyes who can resist? :D

better enjoy the calm before the storm (before the work comes flooding in!)